Going Home =)

As of now, I have my flight booked back home from Dec 28th - Jan 6th.  Just letting you guys know.  Hopefully I'll get to see some people then xD  That is all, :P ace

My Life Story (Part 10): Sophomore Solace

So after the long winter break off, I was ready to start off a fresh semester.  Oh yeah, and I went to Taiwan too over winter break... I forgot xD.  So yeah, that might explain the weirdness in the picture... xD  But yeah, things were slow at first, because I still had to go through the AAA fashion show stuff, so I still ended up having to see the same people that were involved from the previous semester.  After that was over, I was ready to find a new group of people to hang out with again.  Just like the first time, I found a group based on the mutual love of basketball.  I would hang out with these two people a lot (Nathan and Wells); both of them were a year older, one from AAA and one from TASC. 

We would ball around 4 times a week and hang out when we didn't ball in the ISR lounges, where some other different AAA people would join us.  We were the group of kids in ISR who would get absolutely NOTHING done while "doing work" in the lounges, mostly thanks to the great website known as OMGPOP.  Back then, there was this amazing game called blockles, which was basically tetris battle (unlike the fake blockles tetris they have nowadays).  We would play these games until very late (or early, depending on how you look at it).  One of the people in this group, Peter, eventually became one of my roommates my senior year.  In our bestest of days, the group of people would stay up until breakfast, eat breakfast, and then go to sleep LMFAO.  Man, such good times xD

Later on in the semester though, I decided that I needed to fix my bad habits and readjust my lifestyle.  This included people I hung out with and saw because their ways and manners would influence me and the way I lived.  So at what point in my life was I happiest and most carefree?  Arguably, it was from my Catholic school days.  I decided to reconnect with my church related days, and this started at first through, once again, basketball.  At the end of my sophomore year, I started playing ball more often with people who attended the Covenant Fellowship Church (CFC), which is a Christian Church and not a Catholic one.  Eventually, I started going to the church as well as its events.  Along with that, I also started attending the Taiwanese Investigative Bible Study (TIBS), which was amazing as well.

Most of the people who I did not go to college do not know this, but I am a Christian.  Since the end of sophomore year, I have been decently active with CFC.  But yeah, after playing ball with and getting to know some of the CFC ballers, I was able to be surrounded by a bunch of amazing caring people, who I would say were/are great influences for me.  Besides extreme times of gaming and trolling, these people were decently accountable haha xD  Man, it was such great times with my bros.  But, back to the storyline, at the end of sophomore year as when I just started meeting these CFC people and started balling with them and getting to know them, so it was still an introductory phase.  At first in my CFC life, it was a bit weird learning about and getting accommodated to the differences between Catholicism and Christianity, and it wasn't until later junior year that I was more accustomed to it. 

It might seem random, or not as obvious to some of you, but you may wonder what prompted the sudden change in lifestyle?  Why did I feel like I needed so much change?  Sophomore year was one of the lowest points in my life.  I was surrounded by bad influences (people wise, aka not good people), the economy was bad so money was starting to be a problem, and because of the environment I was in, my grades became severely reflective of it.  The problem with my grades continued even through the summer after my sophomore year, because I decided to try to take some classes to get ahead of where I am supposed to be at at my point in college.  However, I had to drop my classes due to the fact I didn't do too hot in one of my exams >.< 

On the bright side, summer time on campus was so much fun.  I got to hang out with my club friends as well as my CFC friends basically every day.  I think in those days, we went to play basketball every single day haha xD  Compare that to now... I basically never exercise.  SIGH, I miss playing ball :(  That summer, at nights, I would go hang out at "the house," which was this haunted place where my friends David, Brian, and my eventual other 2 roommates for my senior year, Jason and Bailey, lived.  Sophomore year summer was when I was first introduced to Dota (uh oh... xD), and I also played a ton of maplestory with Bailey and Brian (mad embarrassing haha xP)  But yeah, it was a great summer, which is a big reason why I spent the next 2 summers on campus as well :D

Okay, that's enough posting for now.  I haven't written on this blogsite in a while, so writing is becoming difficult, and since I'm not as used to it, it's not as fun >.<  Lol, okay gonna look for some picture to add to this post now, since so much text is tedious for the eyes and not as fun.  Aight, thanks for following guys :D  :P ace

 

 

 

TASC Bros

Oh, and did I fail to mention my participation in the TASC Capture the Flag tournament?  Check out my fantastic outfit xD

Graveyard Shift

So I found out today that starting on December 4th, I'll be working the graveyard shift, which is 8:30 PM to 5:00 AM.  FML.  Never thought my sleep schedule could get worse... xD  At least I have back to back days off now (Tuesday and Wednesday).  That is all. :P ace

My Life Story (Part 9): Sophomore Struggles

On man, this might be a "no pictures" day.

So as the days flew by, I got closer and closer to my TASC board and AAA family, and more specifically, certain members more than others.  In total, I would say I became very close to 3 people, 2 of which were a couple, and 1 was in my AAA family.  We would all see each other and hang out basically every day.  As we got closer, I started liking this girl in my family, but I didn't show it or let anyone know it because I'm the type of person who would want something like that to potentially ruin a good friendship that was already set in place.  Plus, the fact that she was unofficial/on and off with another guy.  However, after a long whiles, I caved.  I told her how I felt about her, and at first she thought I was joking and threatened to hurt me if I was LMFAO.  But yeah, I wasn't, and she responded saying that I already knew the situation she was in.  Yeah, things weren't the same after that...  We didn't talk as much nor hang out that much, and it has remained that way.

Next story.  Man, today's post is all juicy info.  And I guess it'll kind of make me look girl crazy =.= which as not the case =.=  But I'm just postin for the heck of it.

So every year, AAA has a "fashion show" and seeing how it was my first year involved in AAA, I decided to give it a go.  In the formal scene, I met this one girl when we did a rotating partners exercise, and we hit it off quite well.  After some time, I found out that the girl liked me.  This event probably became the biggest "drama" of my life to date.  It's funny how easily I forgot about it as time passed though (one of my character flaws, but I guess it's good in some instances).  This girl also had a thing for this other guy, but I was seen as the one who took her from him.  Which sounds completely horrible, but that's not how it was actually.  I didn't even know about "them 2".  But yeah, this girl and going out with her was one of the worst decisions of my life because basically, this girl was not a good person.  You would think that having 2 girlfriends before would help my decision making, but gf #3 was a badd choice.

So I have this little problem that I guess many people can relate to.  I tend to find out by some way or method if someone likes me or is interested.  That's not the problem though.  The problem I'm referring to is: do you ever have that feeling where you don't know if you actually like someone, or like them because you know that they like you?  Bam.  Story of my life thus far.  My past three relationships have fallen under category, meaning only my first relationship can be characterized as, in lack of a better word, "pure" intentions wise.  Looking back on my relationship choices, it's clear now that my choices were severely influenced by the fact that I knew they liked me.  Trust me, because I nitpick at people to see if they can be possible partners in my mind if I have any interest in them, of course this being before I know if they like me (if I were to find out).  If I remember correctly, I didn't consider either of my last 3 after my "nitpicking" process.  Gosh I make this sound so bad =( Don't judge me :(

Yeah I don't really understand myself either.  In certain instances in my life where I found out that someone liked me, I did end up avoiding the person, or the topic when it came up.  But obviously, that wasn't the case for my last 3 relationships.  I don't know what it is.  Is it comfort?  As in, who doesn't like being liked?  Or is it just settling?  As in, it's the "safe thing" to go for people who like you?  Saying you settled for someone is kind of mean, but honestly, who knows?  That might/probably was the case for me.  Then again, I do believe that people, including myself, struggle to understand their own feelings, thoughts, and/or actions.

So if you guys realize a pattern so far, it's that I find friends, get close to them, then push them away.  Happened with my "roommate" freshman year.  Happened with this family member sophomore year.  But wait, there's more.  Sophomore year isn't nearly over yet.  There's this "couple" I referred to earlier in the post.

So I got really close to the guy so we decided to get an apartment together for junior year (you have to decide on apartment really early).  We also decided on a trip to Taiwan Winter Break together.  However, all this was before I really got to know the guy...  This guy was, for lack of a better term, not a good bf to the girl, who also became a really good friend, and is still one to me.  The guy is actually the primary example of the type of people I hate most in the world.  I hate tools.  So.  Much.  Tools and bad drivers are the things in the world that irritate me and piss me off the most.  K not gonna go more into detail because I don't want to get angry at 1 AM LOL.  But this guy actually said to the gf at the time that she has to "fight for him".  LOL, like WTF?  Ok, I'm done for reals.  So yeah, I "got to know the real him" too late since I already got an apartment with him, so yeah, had to live with him all of junior year... and I had to go on a trip to Taiwan with him.  GG.

Random thought:  Funny thing, but now that I think about it, once I found about about the "tool", more tools started popping up.  Yeah one of my roommates at the time was kind of a tool as well.  Smart thing right?  Get more angry and push away friends from the already small "friend pool" I have.  Okay, now back to the story lol.

So to sum it all up, by the time Spring semester started, out of my 3 closest new friends, I basically killed my friendship with the girl in my family, and wrongly chose a friend and mistakenly got too close to him.  Me and the girl in that relationship at the time stopped talking for a bit after their breakup (I got mad at both sides and stopped talking to both for different reasons, I'm weird like that).  But we started talking later on, more so after my failed relationship with the formal scene girl.  That's another thing I entered the Spring semester with: coming out of a terrible relationship.  Although we've had (major) ups and downs in our friendship (the girl that was in the relationship), we always ended up being good friends again, which is one of the few good takeaways from my otherwise depressing life story haha xD

Haha okay, I think I'll end the post on the one "bright" spot in my gloomy post today.  Btw, all of that was basically the first semester of Sophomore year if you didn't get that.  Hope you guys found this post entertaining, and weren't bored from this like from my other posts.  Thanks for stopping by!
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Muahaha I lied, ONE picture!
This is your life lesson for the day.
Don't be like me (the one on the right)!